Did you ever get so mad at someone you said somthing that was just so perfect and it was just what you wanted to say. Then after words you feel bad about it and you say 'I'm so sorry' then everthing goes back to normal and you still want to tell that person the same thing? I know I'm a bit confusing on how I word it and all but its my journal. No more to the point. I have a dad and my dad pisses me off so bad all the time. I love to talk to him but it seems I can never have a good conversation with him. We talk and then he says something about one of my flaws. And when ever I do something he has to comment about how I could have done it better. I just want to walk up to him and tell him I don't want him to talk to me at all. All that comes out of his mouth is hurting me and it just grows deeper and deeper by the day. You know I have thought about killing myself before. Yeah, it crosses my mind all the time now a days.... What can I say thought. I'm not rich, but I'm not poor. My family is nice, even if what they say hurts me. I have a great best friend that I love but I have to let go. Plus I have desent grades even if one is really low. I don't feel as if I deserve to kill my self..........Others push on with lives even worse than mine but maybe one day....I'll write down what happens to me on a good day. Then maybe it wouldn't be all that hard to belive.